Another good day

Yesterday was a pretty darn nice day at the office. Started down almost two buyins but it picked up pretty quick, ran pretty hot and ended up +65 on the short 2 hour session. Not a bad way to go out before moving up.

Brand new day

YES finally stopped running so bad, afternoon session was blah, but evening session was pretty damn fine. I was up nearly 50 at one point but KK vs AA set me back near the end. Overall a much better feeling about my game and my stats and mostly my graph are back to where I want them to be.

Better day? Not quite

Morning session went well, evening session not so much. Didn't lose anything but 3 buyins under ev and breaking even over 1600 hands is fun

Donkey fucking tilt.

Last two days have been the roughest in terms of poker, it is so frustrating to not even be able to beat the lowbie nothing stakes. It is fucking redic how bad I can run while every fish flops trips or quads on me every other hand.

If I keep running like this I will be broke in no time.

Stress??

So today is the 11th, I can't say anything for the date other then it speaks to me in two ways, one far more important to my day to day life than the other, or to anything that my existance contains. I got her flowers last night, and put them in her room as a surprise, seemed pleased but passively irritated. Maybe I am just inventing stuff in my head, but I feel a distance growing between us which is the last thing I want in the world. I know I am not a great BF, not even a decent one, but I love her without a thread of doubt. I just want this stress, this worrying to end so I can get back to what I love, back to how it was.

No poker for a while, probably won't play again for a few days.

Lovers and acquaintances

there is no in between

I'm pretty sick to my stomach now, pretty sick of the way things work around here. Sick of my roommate (or more or less doormat), sick of the people I call "friends". Why waste valuable time with people who just aren't there, that have no respect, no dignity for themselves or you. There is nothing true in this world, nothing whole and good hearted left in people. There is just you and your actions. Sometimes you must sit in the dark to finally see the light.

I'm not exactly what this blog will be about, or if I will even use it much at all, but for now I feel like sticking my head into an oven.