[x] stole your EV

Been really quiet and low volume past month, if not 2 months. Was playing well up until about the last month but started to run decently bad, winning but very small like 2bb/100 and one bad shot at 50nl so breakeven. Although I have run ungodly over EV somehow even though I feel like every other hand is a suckout.

Current graph without EV.

Other then poker, have been playing a lot of SC2, D2 and trying to get my school work and graduate school applications started. Hopefully I will try to get everything but my GRE done by end of month so I can not worry about them anymore.

NEW UPDATEAMENTS

John bugged me to update, so update I shall.

Since last time I have continued to run good for most part, few down sessions that i've grinded out for even days and a few good sessions. My overall graph now looks like

Winning near 8bb/100 over a good sample so I am pretty happy about it. I still def think there are room for improvement and will work harder once i get back into a reasonable schedule and know what is going to happen with new RL job. Should shot take at 50 soon enough but keep having to withdraw. Going to wait for 30 buyins so I am not super far away but might take me a while with my low volume.

Having an HEM stat review with Mpethy tomorrow and will post a report of what I know will be an excellent session that will help me get better and hopefully help me do well at the half dollar when I move up.

ANOTHER POST OMG

So I finally kind of got my joomla website going, check it out at www.asgleague.com/joomla

This league is going to be such a bitch but I think it is going to be a lot of fun and hopefully after a little while we can make some money at it via ads and sponsors. Def need some good logos and banners and stuff done so we can get this off the ground. If anyone knows hardcore php and maybe even some java I would def hit me up since it will be a well paying job since most design companies seem to want to quote 3K+ at the moment.

Played a single wc3 game last night since sc2 beta was bugging out, ladder reset last month so i was unranked completely. First game i face a level 23 orc (top level atm is 34) and about 2 minutes into the game my video completely freezes and goes completely black on the ground and most units. All I see are some trees and shadow effects, and I still own this orc. SO FUCKING PRO.

And since I feel like it, im going to post my poker graph.

I need to start updating this more.

April was overall a shitty month in both poker and classes. Felt like I was playing better but still ran pretty terrible. May has been great, only have a few thousand hands in because lack of motivation and been running so well that I am afraid to have a losing session. Have really been crushing when I have been playing.

Otherwise just a good month, got into SC2 beta finally and have been playing a ton. Work has been better and is nice and much less painful in the mornings then working at night. Hopefully I will grind some more in the last week or so of month and have good results to post.

Long time

Been forever since I posted on here. Feb and March have been rough months are so as everything. Poker has been horrific. I got a stake on Feb 15th after being breakeven for like 50k hands, then immediantly went into a 30 buyin downswing, like 25 below ev, that lasted through the first week of march. Took a while off, came back and regrinded from 2nl up. Back to 25nl now and doing better but lack of time from school work has made my volume low.

Sarah and me are okkkayy? Not sure what else to say, nothing is going on at all, which is what scares me the most. I am getting bored with myself again and not sure how much longer of this I can take. Plus with her friend courtney being single and slutty and having time for sarah frigthens me because sarah is such a push over that courtney is going to get her into bad situations and end up doing something stupid like always.

Why try.

I have been having a problem concentrating, I think it is the combined fact that I am extremely depressed once again, I stopped drinking caffeine which is causing withdraws, stressed about school already, and am totally unhappy with everything in my life. I feel so out of touch with everything, I can not even sit down and do homework without just zoning out for an hour at a time, getting zero work done.

Last post sounded pretty extreme, but I want to apologize to Kelly because she did not deserve what I said. I love Kelly, she might be the only person that is even close to understanding me, but even that isn't very close. It just pains me to see her. The second I feel her presence, I feel nothing but guilt. Not because of who she is, or our relationship which is so shit because I am too stupid to settle for what she offers me. It is because she embodies everything that I want, and I hate her for it. She has friends, she has a social life, she has activities and happiness. She seems happier now then I have ever seen her, which makes me feel some joy, but just even more guilt in myself because I know that there is nothing in my life that brings me even close to what she has. Usually I say that I will only stick around as long as I help a person stay/become happy, but Kelly has that without me, nor do I provide any in her life, she is far better off without me bringing her down. So maybe it is just time to let it go, as much as it pains me to lose someone who I feel close to, at least emotionally.

Also about apartment, I don't blame Kelly. She is doing what is easy for her, and probably the smarter plan. I was just looking forward to having someone around to actually communicate with. I guess I should have expected this but that is how it goes sometimes.

Poker update at last. Quick session tonight after losing my mind for a while. Only 1000 hands, one gay cooler vs mega-fish, and then this hand which saved my session:


Poker Stars $0.10/$0.25 No Limit Hold'em - 9 players - View hand 507004

The Official DeucesCracked.com Hand History Converter



UTG+1: $25.00

UTG+2: $37.25

MP1: $20.00

MP2: $9.95

CO: $29.90

Hero (BTN): $25.00

SB: $9.35

BB: $27.80

UTG: $26.25



Pre Flop: ($0.35) Hero is BTN with T T

6 folds, Hero raises to $0.75, 1 fold, BB calls $0.50



Flop: ($1.60) J 9 Q (2 players)

BB checks, Hero bets $1.25, BB calls $1.25



Turn: ($4.10) K (2 players)

BB checks, Hero bets $3.25, BB calls $3.25



River: ($10.60) 9 (2 players)

BB checks, Hero bets $6.50, BB raises to $22.55 all in, Hero calls $13.25 all in



Final Pot: $50.10

Hero shows T T (a straight flush, Nine to King)

BB shows 9 9 (four of a kind, Nines)

Hero wins $47.65

(Rake: $2.45)

Life rant time

First off, had one down session on pokerstars, right after a small withdraw. Both just standard stuff but wasn't really focused and just got off. xfered some money to tilt to try this rush shit. And I ran LOLbad and lost 10 (yes 10 buyins) at 10nl. Whatever, xfered what was left back to pokerstars.Haven't been focused or motivated so I haven't played at all. So that ends my grind for supernova more then likely.

Life rant time.Sarah and I are doing good, which is probably the only bright spot in my life. Friends? John Wu. That is the list. I try to talk to Kelly and Ron but they just do not give a shit, and honestly I am so fed up with having to wait upon people to be bored enough to talk to me. Even when I do see them it makes me nothing but more depressed because I realize how empty and hopeless my life is.They both have lives, and friends, and actually go out and do things where I sit around and waste my life away. I have no friends, no job, do shitty in school.

Kelly now says she is not going to move out of her apartment and find a place with me, so basically I am screwed for next year, probably going to have to move home. Which will completely fuck up my life, but fuck it. It can't get any worse then it already is.

/endrant

UPDATEAMENTS

Didn't play yesterday, trying to not burnout from the pretty big volume I have been trying to put in. Got on today and noticed 11.22 hyper turbos to 33r sat. Played a few and was up big and was like "hey this is easy", and then proceeded to lose like 150 (atleast) after being up like 80 early on. Played one cash session and lost a buyin and quit. Then decided to degen and play underrolled again for 25nl til I was rolled again. Got down near 4 buyins early in session (running 85 below ev) and grinded it back til i was up just over 105 bucks. Overall stats and graphs now.

Long Day

Going to try to update every day now. Yesterday had a good session just after midnight where I made like 48 bucks. I then played again at 7pm, and well it didn't go very well.

Since last update

On vaca, didn't play much before I went home for the week of xmas. Since I have played well although I am still lacking in hands played like I wanted. Current graph of DB, last 20k hands in janurary.

8.5k hands of 25nl and 20k hands of 10nl. Winrate overall of 12bb/100 combined. :)